Apathy

Another question.... As many of you know I started antidepressants 6 weeks ago. I had gotten so bad that I truly didn't see anyway out of the "pit" that I had sunk into.

In the past several months I have ran through the full range of emotions that have nearly driven me crazy. I've gone from being heart broken, devestated, angry, grief, all the whys? and finally into the area of now how can I get better and make sure this will never happen again? I've got the feelings of I'll never trust again, etc., etc.

The newest and the one that to me right now that is most scary is this feeling of complete apathy that has enveloped my like a fog. I'm not sure it is a result/side effect of the antidepressants or if it is another part of the journey.

I'm not liking this feeling at all. I literally have NO motivation to do anything. I don't care about anything. It's almost of if I've become numb. I can't seem to make myself do anything. I say I will and then it doesn't happen. I'm even at the point that I'm forcing myself truly to shower, I just don't feel like it. I can't seem to care about anything anymore.

What's wrong with me?