Trying to survive this

I am newbie here. I have read most of Lisa's book, and am trying to do the writing exercises. I have been in narc relationship for 6 years resulting in a marriage for 4 years and am in the process of getting out. I truly hope I have been through the worst. I admit I dealt with the process of D & D during the marriage by drinking too much, but now am much better and don't need the anesthesia. I know I need to feel things to get free. It has been a very shitty struggle, and I have found anger in myself that I did not know existed, and there are times it has been frightening to me. I am in counseling, back on an antidepressant. Thank God we do not have children. I have been finding OW phone numbers as I clean the house, I even found him on Match.com while we were still married. But, according to him, he was the most loyal of mates and never cheated; how could I not believe him? He has even D&D'ed the dog who is now living with me; although he says he may take him back at some point. He took him for 4 days and brought him back to me sick, and in need of veterinary care which I did. In the 2 months I have had the dog who has brought me so much love and comfort, he has made NO effort to see him. I say take me to court and prove the dog was ever yours, right? We are in the process of selling our house, so NC is not possible at this time. Of course I have had to do 95% of all the work to get the house on the market. He is just too important and busy he does not have the time. I have not contacted him, but he does contact me usually to just be an ass. If he calls me he screams at me. In my days of NC I do so well, I can even feel myself getting some of my old mojo back. But after his contact, I start with the self-doubt; am I just being to mean to him, why am I such a mean bitch? I have obsessed about him, and consciously try to make myself stop, and sometimes that does not work. Through the separation and his moving out, he has made himself a profession victim in all this. He has no friends his own age (is this normal for a narc?); he is freeloading with a married pair of lesbians half his age. I went through 6 years of personal financial ruin; I sacrificed my needs to provide him with all the toys he thought he deserved from me. Well, I am happy to say he is financially boned in the legal separation, just one more thing to make him the poor victim. When we were separating, he filed a police report and even tried to have me arrested for harassment based on lies saying I hit him. The truth was that I had just told him I would no longer pay any of his bills. I am a licensed professional, and that would have potentially put my career in jeopardy. Shows how much he cared about me. So I went to Domestic Violence court the next day and got a refraining order that said the police report was a lie and required him to get his guns out of the house. He had already turned them in to the local PD that day saying he was afraid of me! Boy was he so pissed that I beat him at his own game! What I have found works best in dealing with him is to call him out on his narc behavior and always anticipate his next move and beat him at whatever game he is trying. And there have been more than a few. This is costing me $$ in attorney fees but is so worth it to watch him twist! Not to mention the NC peace I have for a few days after he has been beaten; funny he has nothing to say after each round for at least 2 or 3 days. This whole process is unbelievably exhausting mentally and emotionally and I just want it to stop. Currently I am living in the house and everyday when I go to work I have to put all my personal papers and computer in my bedroom and lock the door. I HATE living like this but have no option at this time. I feel like a hamster on a wheel, going no where fast. My close girlfriends do not understand narc behavior, they just think he is a crazy asshole. I guess I just need some support and kinship with others who understand what I am going through. Thanks for reading and listening to me.