Just a thought

Some days thoughts just flood into my mind and I start to question and blame myself all over again. Then I see that the answers were staring me in the face, all along..like the time that he said " and another thing that does not help is when you keep questioning my esteem and affection for you "
What esteem and affection ? he never showed me any.
He ignored me. But how dare I question his esteem and affection for me..right?
I am glad oh so glad that I threw him out of my life and blocked him for good.