Self esteem

I feeling low on myself tonight. I posted before about when I was child I was painfully shy...and my 13 yo son has social anxiety I think, like I did when I was little. It is more than just shyness on his part. It is affecting his friendships and self esteem. My social anxiety was cured after they gave me an antidepressant when I was post partum . I am so guilty that I have passed this on to him.my H who is.extrovert doesn't understand our son, H thinks my don is lazy, unmotivated, wimpy but I know my son gets anxious about certain social situations and he digs his heels in when encouraged by us. I don't know how to approach this. Insurance not cover psychologist and does he need meds? Which my H is against? I know the anguish my son is feeling, I think meds would be helpful to him, but is he too young?

Off on a tangent...regarding my self esteem...I read somewhere, may not have been here, and correct me if I am mistaken, that N prefer mates who they feel are beneath them in some way. This way NS doesn't outshine the N. So when exN called me beautiful, sexy, hot, perfect for him....he probably didn't mean those things. But when I saw him this year for round 2, I picked up on his subtle insults of my looks, as if he was justifying his pending discard. So he was probably not attracted to me at all? It just makes me feel so disgusted about myself, that I can't be this younger, sexier, skinnier person. PMS is in full swing, can't you tell? Lol