Reaching acceptance...

I reached acceptance couple months back but my question here is: upon reaching acceptance are you supposed to feel stupid and wondering why you allowed yourself to be betrayed?
I feel like a real idiot, that I lost my dignity ( dignity and pride are so important to me- they were the reasons I left)... And he himself gets to live the life he wants whilst I start again! ( not that I know how he lives exactly but everything you don't know, you romanticise).

I know I'm lucky, I know I'm a survivor but I feel like im floating on air and haven't really found ground yet, or the path I want. Though to be honest, air floating is a hell of a lot better than roller coaster riding.... Weeeeeeee

I have my days- mostly I'm not sad, I'm not overly ecstatic... I just am. I function well enough.

I think I have a case of bruised ego, of feeling silly ( used & abused) and I'm hoping this passes in time and I get back on track.

Cannot say how much this site helps... Truly a godsend

Lovely1 x