Will this ever end
Will this ever end
Hi,
It's been a few months since I posted. But, it's been a bad day today and I'm just hoping I can keep going. It's been 18 months since the relationship ended. And there have been over 100 hours with my counsellor trying to get my head straight regarding everything that I have felt about the relationship and the discarding. I thought I was making progress but she's always somewhere in my mind. She's still there and that power is still ruling my life. Or that's how it feels. Somedays I just feel like getting away, disappearing and trying to forget completely. But, life doesn't seem to work that way and I have a job and people around me that I cannot let down. Today, I bumped into an old friend who just made a passing comment about seeing my ex with her new man. They have been together for about 14 months and it all sounded as though it was going well for them. It feels as though all the therapy was just me justifying my failure and that she was right to discard me and find someone better. All of my work on understanding the toxic relationship, the devaluation and the effect on my self esteem has been replaced with a feeling that I was to blame and now someone else, without my hangups has stepped into my place and is enjoying true happiness with her. When does this end. When does the CD pass. Am I hanging onto the pain as another way of destroying myself for failing to meet her demands. If anyone has any words to help, please post. I know I should be strong and move on. I know I am allowing her to control my life but I just cannot seem to break the cycle.
Thanks,
Paul
Sounds like you are getting some great advice here, Paul
Sorry about my Delayed response
OUTSTANDING response, GSO
Paul, You wrote "Am I hanging
Break the cycle
Hey Paul....Who is she to
Here's the thing .. You need
rejection..