This sinking feeling...

It all ended about a year ago, and I can say I'm 95% over the whole thing and I have seen him for what he is.

I have changed jobs and got the job I always wanted, moved to a different city, my whole life has changed.

But still I feel that as if he won and got what he wanted and is happy... and I am all alone. I don't even have family or friends here.

I had a couple dates a few months ago with a guy I was really attracted to, but he kept blowing hot & cold (very interested one day, NC for two weeks the next) but no one seems to be interested in me.

I know I have to be patient and all that, but it's been a year... am I really that disgusting and undesirable? In one year wouldn't even ONE guy, just ONE be interested in me?

The evil N had dozens of women to chose from, and I can't even find a person to date and have some company.

I guess I just need to vent...