Why would he do this?

Hi all

You may or may not remember, I ride horses with my daughter, every weekend. When Trotters and I were together, we did this altogether, as a family. In fact, if it hadn't been for me, his 2 girls would not know one end of a horse to the other.

Since we split 6 months ago, he has continued to take his girls and now OW (ooh, did this 6 weeks after leaving me!), who eerily also rides and so I am told, looks like me...this creeps me out.

So, we have happily avoided each other up to this point, I go at different times, I don't go out of my way but ensure that I book on a different day. Part of his control has always been that he wanted to go first thing on a Sunday, so that he could then deliver the masterpiece of a Sunday lunch to his girls and now OW!!

This weekend, I have booked to go on Sunday morning, purely due to having a busy Saturday, other plans, parties with my kids. So what has he done? He has booked the slot directly after.....blatantly sticking 2 fingers up to me. Typical behaviour.

So, he will be arriving whilst I am still there, with OW and his girls. I am NOT changing my time, I am NOT allowing him to manipulate me or bully me into changing my plans or make me feel as if I have no rights anymore. But I can not help but feel that he is using this as an opportunity to rub my face in it, it is actually laughable. I have been NC for over 3 months, not a whisper. I clearly have not been the loopy stalker ex that he has told everyone I am, I have been NC and started rebuilding my own life, and loving doing so. And now this? Really? Why on earth would you want to expose OW and your kids to me if I am sooooooo unhinged????!!! LOL! I am actually finding this quite unbelievable. Why why why would he do this?

Well you know what, let him. Because I actually don't care anymore!! I will be there, on my own, looking fabulous and you know what.....I don't need another person with me to flaunt under his nose! I don't need another person to validate who I am. I could be on my own forever and a day but you know what, I think I am OK, I know I am OK. He thinks he is superior to me, I can see that smug little look on his face....well, shock coming to you Trotters....would he even register the difference in me I wonder?

So, I am going to hold my head up high, remember who I am and let him see that the person he left is not around anymore. The person he met in the first place is back and back to stay, but sincerely and permanently closed for business as far as he is concerened.....and she doesn't need to play or be involved in his stupid little mind games anymore. Take your ball elsewhere loser.

Person I feel sorry for? OW - she surely will feel worse about this than me? And his kids? WTF??? One word, twisted.