I hate days like this.....

Really I doing well, but the last few days, cd has me spinning just a little. It's just so strange how I can feel myself moving forward, and then I have a day like this. I'm not sure what has trigger it. I just can't seem to get him off my mind today. Remembering all the lies he told me, and even seeing some more that I missed before.

I go between hating what he did and wishing it was just a terrible dream. It still hard to digest that someone could be that destructive to someone else....so cold, so selfish.

I started here in December, and there were so many other women on here that has long since gone. I wonder how they are doing? Did they get it altogether so soon? I know I'm moving forward but it is quite the process! Sometimes I think of leaving the site, but I still not sure how well I would do without the support.

I'm having a sleepless night, just sharing some thoughts. I was still able to function today, no tears, and no lying in bed. I have counseling today, so that will be good. I am making some good changes in my life, with boundaries and self-care.

Just wish I could erase him from my mind.....
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