So i try to fake it til I make it

So i am gonna get real here. I try to fake it til I make it. I am in contact with other members. I offer up my own experience, strength and hope. I try to point them in the right direction. I try to be there for them. I try to offer suggestions and advice but today it's me that needs help. I am at a loss. I hate the weekends. I hate thinking about who is he with, what is he doing? he is with my ex best friend. I predicted that moths ago. I knew this is exactly what was going to happen. He needs to be the hero, the rescuerer and its she he has chosen to victimized next. I hate it. I pretend it doesn't bug me, but it bugs me. I am hurt, I am lonely and i am pissed. She chose him over our friendshi and he chose her over our reltionship. I hate it and yes it is getting to me. Thanks for letting me vent.