I feel this empty void.......

and I know it makes no sense, I have not seen him since last Friday.....and I have 2 days of full NC after I blocked him Thursday. I have spent so much time with him for the past almost 2 years. We never really did much of anything apart from each other, except work and maybe sometimes, especially in the past 8 weeks, we went to separate bible studies on Tuesday night. I know that I need to keep doing this, but it is really, really difficult. When you spend so much time with someone....even it has been very sick and dysfunctional....it's like "WOW" now what do I do?? I know it is going to take time.....does anyone have suggestions of things they did once they ended things??? I mean just how to keep busy?? I have been reading alot today....I might run out to a few stores and get some things.....keep setting up my apartment.....etc. I am actually looking forward to going to work on Monday.....now that is a first!!!
I don't even know what my interests are anymore.....the last time I was alone, not with a man, was when my 2 daughters were with me full time!! We has so many things we did together, and I really miss them!!!
I think, in part, that it has been so difficult to finally leave was the chaosis would stop and I would be left really feeling the pain about my kids.....I'm sorry I keep talking about it, but with mother's day, I am just really sad about it!!