This is working...

Its been a week NC - every day is getting easier. I still have moments but not as bad as the initial panic of last week.

Sold the ring and token - So I'm getting some of my money back. I know he is watching my eBay store because of the number of views on the coloring books - I may take them down and just burn them. Not sure what route to take with those. I won't go near his house.

Last night I had a long talk with one of our mutual friends (although she hates him now so not so much mutual anymore) she is in AA-recovery and was astonished when I told her what has been going on. She could not believe that I was so 'stupid' she said. Trying to get her to understand was impossible. and she kept asking me what am I going to do to fix me - so that this don't happen again so I told her about this site and what everyone has been telling me.

I'm glad I have this place to come to because when I tell people who don't understand they get pissed at me. Every time I feel low, I come here and read.

I'm very grateful for your patience.

Thank you!