Raging

I am not totally sure what happened, what has come over me, but it has been brewing all day. My anger is boiling over. I want to tell him what dumb fucking lying asshole he is so bad! He’s such a lying PIG! My feeling is that (because he volunteered that he wouldn’t do this) he is bad-mouthing me. I feel like some people are looking at me funny or not at all. I am enraged! I am also mad at myself because I have been doing better but continue to make bad decisions (like drinking) which lead to more bad decisions. I’m on overwhelm. 