Lost

I just feel lost....

I hate this feeling.

I've had moments of peace but they don't seem to stick around.... Just have this empty lost feeling. This just makes me feel very unmotivated and 'what's the point?'
Just feel like everyone else gets to feel joy and I've been stuck with two years of hell.... And then another 18 months or more to heal.... That's not fair :(

Anyone else feel like this?