Need some common sense .....
Need some common sense .....
Well I about 50 some days nc. So I'm still dealing with the aftermath of the narc. Counseling is going well, just starting to deal with the issues in my childhood that led me here. So what do I start doing dating.....
So my friend hook me up this guy. He's is so out of my element, biker guy with a large tatoo thats saids motherfucker. Of course, he's covered in tatoos, rides a harley been married twice. He was coached by by narc father in boxing. He only dated small petite blondes, I am tall, latina, so different from who he been with. He likes bad girls, I am not a bad girl, can't even fake it. He doesn't drink or do drugs, but I heard that he has a mean temper and a bully. (My son told me this.) Of course, he's been kind to me. My friend told me we look like jesse james and sandra bullick, together. So I thought I could just play, nothing serious.
The other night, we were talking and snuggling. I said you just feel so finaliar to me. He said because we compatable. I think he feels finaliar to me, because of my past, the drama, though I usually date different looking men but from the same childhood place. Of course, I look at the good in him, he works, has full custody of his younger son.
I'm not a mess, but that little voice, saids to back off, get it together girl. What the fuck am I doing, when will I learn that I have to invest in myself. I find myself drawn to him, wanting his approval, wanting to take care of him. FUCK ME< I feel so damage by men, and yet here I'm willing to place myself there again. I mindfuck myself.
Talk to me girls, (maybe I in bit of a mess) There's a part of me that just wants to use men, drink and just don't give a fuck about anything or anyone. I want to build a wall so high so no one can ever hurt me again. Help!!! I so need to get refocus.
What is 50 days, 7 weeks
Journey on...
So from what I have gathered,
Yea....
Nope, you haven't been
Whoa
I know
bIker guy
I think there is something to
and should you take that
the other side of the coin
Your "friend" introduced you to this man?
Ya I also meant to mention
NO NO NO fallingforward!!!
I would run for the
try listening
A 2 x divorced biker guy that
Listen, FF, you are hearing
spinning
I know you're right
You made a mistake
RUNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!