Today

Today I am having the most trouble with accepting that he was probably cheating on me long before he broke up with me... Seeing as he is already in a full blown relationship. That type of dark heart and lying is unfathomable to me. It's a self esteem blow. Hopefully on day I will meet a man who values my heart. It hurts so bad. It's discussing.
Was he seeing her when he started abusing me? Was he ever faithful?