Florence's Story
Florence's Story
I've never been one for labels, but I have to face up to the fact that I was a 'victim' of someone who fits all the criteria of a narcissist/psychopath. I haven't heard from nor been in contact with him for nearly 4 months, and I have no desire to speak to or see him, in fact, I physically shake just imagining the scenario. My biggest worry, is that he will catch me off guard one day and that is very exhausting, as I feel like I have to be 'on guard'. I think the idea of taking it in stages is very positive and helpful. Although I don't wish to see or speak to this creature, I still feel this so-called 'connection' which is totally bizarre, as in hindsight, we had nothing, special or otherwise. In terms of stages, I think I'm still very much in the fearful/angry zone. I think of elaborate plans to avenge the wrongs he did to me, but that's all they will ever be - as I recognise that to do ANYTHING that would connect me again to him in some way, would be the most dangerous thing to do. As a good friend said to me, my revenge is that I don't need to avenge myself, as I am a real person with real people about me who care. That means such a lot and I feel much better now than I did a few months ago. I just wish I could find a way to erase all memories of him from my brain, as none of them are good, or warrant being remembered - apart to serve as a warning for the future. I don't want to be bitter, twisted and vengeful, I never have been before. It really helps to know there are others out there that have been chewed up & spat out by these 'souls with no footprint'. Does anyone else have nightmares about it? Look forward to sharing support. florence.
Good morning Florence.
Florence, here we are, both
Stay strong
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PTSD is very common among