The list...

Writing this as much for myself as everyone else.

Having a horrendous day. I mean over the top bad. Gonna pour a stiff one kind of day and crank up sad yet angry songs on Spotify.

It would be so easy to text him, say I could use a friend, slip into that fake escape from my reality. (Don't you know I was his BFF? He told me so. That he loved me more than anyone, only a tiny bit less than his kids but more than his cat. Strangely left out the dozen OW. Seriously, WTF? It's so laughable and tragic at the same time. But I digress...)

The only thing that is stopping me is THE LIST. If you haven't made one, please do. I was scared to do it. Didn't want to see it all in black and white. And it's long, peeps, as I know everyone's is here. But it stops me. Every.Single.Time.

Do the list if you haven't. And then read it. As many times as it takes. Trust me.