Hard time...angry at myself!
Hard time...angry at myself!
I don't know why i know the rule contact=pain...i just am having a hard time with no closure...the last i heard his voice was one month ago...i did good and didn't call for 2 weeks and then i saw it...the dreaded bait on fb...i'm smarter than that and i knew what he was doing but for the life of me i can't understand why i even look! i deactivated my account but still peak through a friends account and it's just stupid...why do we torture ourselves?! i caved and after 2 weeks of not calling i called...got ignored so i called some more...his trap worked...for someone who says he wants me better and stronger and back to the girl he used to love he sure knows how to hurt me...i am sitting here back at square one and just so sad inside. i feel overwhelmed again...how am i going to do this?! i mean i know how but the way i feel right now i just am so tired of starting over...i'm so angry at myself! i just wanted to say what i needed to so i could be ok...instead i made it worse on myself while he is off enjoying another weekend with his new girlfriend...i feel so stupid! thanks for listening and letting me vent...hugs!
Thanks to all for your kind
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Dude, I totally get this...
Don't beat yourself up over it
I broke NC a week ago
It's a process
Part of the formula is to be
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