The third OW..

I have discovered another woman..Jesuse Christ, I was right, but seeing the proof right before my eyes, is like a cold shower.

And cold showers are good too sometimes, because it faces you with the ultimate truth..I was just one of the many, I wasn`t "special" or anything else..I was just "there"..

It could have been anyone else..the same questions, the same "why don`t you tell how you really feel, are you afraid" - stories, with this girl as well.

I don`t feel right nor wrong..it`s like I see the whole picture now, I see "the beast" in him more clearly than ever. It doesn`t matter who we are, what we like, how much we love them, how far we go into trying to "prove" this word "LOVE" to them..it`s all the same story, with different characters.

Like someone said, it will always be a slower gazelle for the predator to catch.

This is like the ultimate way he could still "get" to me if I can put it like that..and it did.

I realise how little everything I ever did mattered, all the cycles, all that time, all those sleepless nights, questions, tears, songs..it didn`t matter at all, not for a moment.

In a way, this is the ultimate proof I needed, to finnaly start living my life, without guilt. It was all about him, and in these moments, I am glad I am out, I am glad he`s out of my life, virtually and physically, I am glad I haven`t left a trace of "me" behind. I am glad I`m not a fool, and I am glad because I am not one of any of these women, who ponder in doubts and questions, whoever they are.

I am glad I`m "the one who got away".

Though it got to me, it`s the cold shower that I needed, to live my life. I will not say I wish him harm, or to burn in hell (I`m sure that`s the place he came from) because the best revendge ever, is for me to live stronger, better, more peacefully, and without people like him in my life. That`s what I want.

He seems to have an active career of screwing women all over the world..I will end this with one of the few true song lyrics he had about himself.."his eyes look like angels, but his heart is cold".

I rest my case here ladies, have a wonderful day!