Do you ever think "maybe we can just have sex"?

If even that were any good...I'd be thinking that, sure. But since that sucked..... no. And might I add...after seeing what he's hooked up with since me? Definitely not without a hazardous material suit.

I may have thought this right after the D&D but when he keeps bringing up the OW in conversation (before I shut him down and blocked him totally) it kinda kills all desire. The REAL kicker was when, months after the D&D, and he was hanging out a lot with the OW, went to the shore with her and her friends, she and her friends went out shopping for furniture (used - which was a total blow to his ego right there) for his new house...he called me and wanted sex!!!! That was a REAL "aha" moment. I asked him outright. "Why are you asking me for sex??" That tiny part of me with toxic hope wanted him to say that he still loved me (because, at that point, I still loved him). He hemmed and hawed and said "I don't know" and "I will have to think about that" but I would not let him go on it. I demanded that he tell me right then and there. He finally said, "Well, we both need it, don't we??" That was the beginning of true NC for me, once and for all. It spoke VOLUMES about his character (or lack thereof) and about how he was already disrespecting the OW. (I think she may have been away at the shore that weekend.) I was DONE after that.