Obsessed with exN. Why???
Obsessed with exN. Why???
I'm starting to think there's something seriously wrong with me. I've always been strong, independent and confident. Now, I can't seem to regain my sense of self.
I broke up with my ex when narcissism was an alien concept to me. I didn't know what it was but I've been exposed to enough healthy relationships to know there was something wrong. I ended things and maintained NC for a couple of months. We got back to being friends though.
In the past couple of months, I discovered things he does with other women that disgust me. I vowed to stay away from him. I don't talk or see him anymore, has been for months. Why do I still seem obsessed with him? I think about him practically 24/7. I still cry. I feel it's a struggle to remind myself everyday why I should hate him. I look him up sometimes on the internet although I've deleted him. I'm obsessed with him even if I know and try to stay away. Like a decomposing carcass you can't take your eyes off.
I just want to be free. My soul is tired and I just want to break free from the chains that bind me. I'm surprised. I should be over the drama by now. My friends are confused as to why I still have feelings for him when he has proven to be a complete and total jackass. How can I care so much for a despicable pig? And why can't I let go especially after knowing how horrible he is?
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