I'm feeling sick
I'm feeling sick
I just found out my xN didn't lie to me about his new gf. She has done all the wonderful things he said she did and is doing --such as a lot of special volunteering around the world and is now studying at a school where I once applied to go. Out of all the people in the world he could've met, he met his "ideal" girl(she seems to have a lot of qualities that he once mentioned to me in a casual conversation were part of his ideal woman during which he just stuck to qualities of character and the like). She seems like a strong leader, sure of herself, brave, etc. What is she still doing with him? (over a year and a half) It's a LD relationship where they see each other every few months.. How in the world in the middle of nowhere (literally) did he end up meeting this girl and despite the uncertainty of the relationship,he did everything to be with her?
I am feeling sick to my stomach. I am feeling worthless. I think maybe if I would've been more like her, things would've been different. I don't know how, but I am feeling that she is so much better than me. She has accomplished so much. I remember how he said doing that which I had studied would not save the world but his career could....just like hers. He must admire her so. No wonder he doesn't let her go despite the LD. I am feeling like the world is playing a joke on me. I don't understand it, and I don't know even what to think. Everything seems to be handed to this guy.
For now. She doesn't have
Reality vs. Fantasy
startanew
Everytime I try to pull
If she's intelligent and can
I am so sorry to hear that
stop comparing yourself
Thank you BarbaraI know
stop
I have observed that even