Is this normal?

My feelings go all over the place like that too. Its getting less intense though, most days.Im glad yesterday was a really good day for you because it shows you you're getting better. Ive had alot of times these last few months when i think to myself, "Im finally over him, over the worst." But then certain things will send me back to grief unexpectedly. The most recent thing to do that was a simple friendly phone call from his mom. I was in tears and depressed that whole day. And a few wks ago was constant anxiety and panic attacks, now im fine.lol Just know that you'lle be feeling all kinds of things for a while. But you will have many more of those great days, and more often as time goes on. Thats what im noticing. Hang in there :)

You get this gig!! It doesn't mean it just goes way,just like that! This is an amusement part of emotions!! As they say "Rome wasn't built in a day" Hunter

I tend to have about 6 bad days to 1 good day. Yesterday was a good day- today, not so much. It really is up and down. Hopefully I'll have 5 bad days to 1 good, then 4, etc. I'm right with you- you are not alone! :)

Somedays it feels like "oh right, this is what life feels like," this is what "me" feels like. and then I will wake up and feel that feeling slipping away. Just remember that this feeling likely wasn't even present in your life at all before and shows you what is possible. I find that my hours or days thinking about him gets shorter and the better periods get longer over time. you are doing great.

So very normal. I vary emotionally day to day or week to week. Time, though, seems to shift the way you see your situation. Every time you have a hard day or days, I truly believe that deep inside, a bit of you toughens up. Eventually all these emotional variables, get you out of the storm. Remeber though... Yr never alone, we all have this place to scream, shout, cry and laugh. Don't b hard on yourself , you are normal, the other isn't! Timtam x

Winter's comments. When this happened to me, I was determined to turn my thoughts elsewhere so I started a gratitude journal. Sounds corney but it really worked. I forced myself to write down even just one thing that was good about my life and that I was grateful for. Some days it was a mere sentence like "my cat." One thing led to another and soon enough my thoughts were re-focused off of anxiety and I actually felt "lighter." I hope this helps. It may be worth a try. It came in very handy for me throughout my recovery. Most sincerely, (not) spinning. IT TOOK WORK AND EFFORT, BUT THE PAYOFF IS TO NEVER SPIN AGAIN FOR ANY MAN, FOR ANYONE!

You will go through many different motions. It is all part of the healing process. Some days you will feel completely and utterly happy and the next, completely and utterly unhappy. It is sort of like the roller coaster ride you were on during the actual relationship. It gets better in time. Although it doesn't seem like it ever will, it does. Hang in there! Enjoy each day, and on the not so good days, realize it is temporary. Stay strong!

I do experience the same. When my mind is busy, I don't think about him. But when I am bored, I start again. However, I have noticed that my thoughts about him are not the same anymore. I use to have an internal dialog with him, replay the past scenarios or expecting him to contact me. Now it is different. It is very vague... Like I don’t really think about something in particular... I just sense his presence in my mind, but it does not bother me that much. And it does not really affect me emotionally... A very weird place to be, but pleasant.