Cheating- the plot thickens

I woke up this morning with new pathways cleared in my brain, I can see the lines as clearly as on a map. I guess I am ready to face this now.

I never caught my n cheating exactly. I was spared facing the horror that our dear badabing saw.
But I know now without an ounce of doubt in my mind that he was cheating.

The lies, times that didn't match up, stories that were misconstrued have all come back to me. Things that have stayed in my mind for years, ruffled my feathers for reasons unknown to me at the time. I suspected the truth then but he was so convincing.

These lies were there from the beginning, i can see it now as clear as day. At the beginning when we were supposedly 'in love' right through to the end when I was a loving fiancé waiting at home for him with his baby.

It's all there in black and white.

I know I'm not alone in this. He told me stories of how his ex cheated on him repeatedly and disgustingly. I realise now it was him all along.

The truth doesn't hurt me the way I thought it would. It more saddens me that I gave so much to this person only to be treated so badly.

I'm lucky I don't have an STD. He never practices safe sex.

I guess the reason it doesn't hurt so bad is I've known this all along, I just ignored it - didn't want to face it.