my narc is a narciopath and it's an ongoing battle

Okay, I'm back to reading again because I think about my narc far too much again. I'm currently reading "Dark Souls - Healing and Recovering" by Sarah Studwick. I am more and more convinced that my narc is a narciopath, meaning Narcissist/Sociopath. It doesn't make it any easier each day, but it reminds me that I cannot contact him and he will never ever be what I need. I feel a loss still and I'm still sad, but it's a choice we have to make to not return. It's almost like I'm dealing with a child inside me that I have to keep correcting and telling NO. This is not a good person and he will never ever be nice to you. No matter how nice I am to him and how hard I try, he will never ever be good to me. He's evil to the core of his being. A big part of me is empathetic and it has hurt me. It's hard to change my character, but I have noticed that I continue to be extremely picky about whom I want to be with and spend my time with. I do not want to be around people that I feel could hurt me. I have huge walls up now and I don't know if that's going to change. I have a few people in my life now that I cherish and I just don't want to expand at the moment. My narc has hurt me so deeply that I'm still dealing with the anguish and pain on a daily basis. I realize now that this is an ongoing battle and we cannot give in to these monsters. We have to fight the voice in us saying the pain would go away if we just talked with them. Ignore that voice because that voice is not what helped us along in this process. We have to follow our gut and mind and not our hearts right now. It's a daily battle for us all and it's not easy. I hope you all have a narc free day.