anyone got some feedback on this?

I'm not even sure why I'm questioning this. I see my therapist about once a month now and this came up in yesterday's session. Knowing that he's been hoovering me, she is concerned that I'm going to cave and she wants to disect what happened in the end so I have a better understanding of how I allow myself to "get played" by him. The thing that she wants me to delve into about myself is why I stayed with him all those years even after I had solid enough evidence of his lying. That's a tough question that we are all trying to understand - as I think we all stay after we know the truth about the narc. I told her about my snooping into his email and his Facebook account over the last 12 months and how guilty I feel about that. I really feel bad about myself because that is something I ordinarily would NEVER do! In the end, I thought "what the Hell!" I want him to KNOW FOR SURE that he's been caught red-handed in his secrecy and deceit so I told him exactly every lie that I now knew about and how I knew. I think what finally made ME explode was his ranting and raving about how untrustworthy I was and how unbelievable it was that I would sink so low as to "illegally" break into his private communications. I've struggled with this mostly over the last several months because I'm not proud of doing this. But you finally get to a point where you just have to know the TRUTH and will do anything to finally KNOW instead of always guessing and worrying. The uncertainty surrounding a relationship with a narc becomes unbearable. I told my therapist that I've actually forgotten what emotional security and stability in an intimate relationship feels like. I'm so tired of being angry and hurt but I'm working hard to feel entitled to do whatever it takes to finally know what the truth of any relationship in my life. I honestly feel like I had every right to cross the boundaries of integrity to fully understand how my boundaries were being knowingly violated by the narc!