for some reason I seem to care about what my ex-narc thinks of me? I dont understand why? I want him to see me as a good person with good values and morals, which I am. why would I even care?
Because the narc has trained and brainwashed you to believe his needs are more important than youre . He uses subtal put downs and devaules youre opinions over a long period of time which is the most insidious abuse which can easily go under the radar . He sets up a master servant relationship right under youre nose but is done so underhandly we dont see it at the time .this brainwashing takes a very long time to go but i can tell you it dose go and you will be free of it .. after a while though reading and time you wont give a flying monkey what he thinks .xx
I think it all has to do with having low self-esteem. If you felt better about yourself - you'd just say "Screw Him!".
You'd draw good feelings from within yourself and not need the bum to validate your sense of worthiness. JMO.
Because the narc has trained
Why do you care what he thinks?