I awoke with such an overwhelming saddness, please please talk to me
I awoke with such an overwhelming saddness, please please talk to me
I awoke from a horrible night of tossing and turning, up every hour on the hour, to the most overwhelming saddness, it is blanketing my entire being. I'm so sad, I guess because I have to come to the realization, that my hN will never stop playing games, that there is a 99% chance every word out of his mouth is a lie. We all know, they dont know how to tell the truth. I'm sad he chose her over me, I'm sad he continues to tell our daughter he doesnt love her, she fucking annoys the crap out of him (lie, he wouldnt be there four nights a week if that were true.) and that he can't wait to get his own place, trust me, he could never afford it, trust me on that. I know, even though hes there four out of seven days, hes still living there, still answering to her, and still having to rush our daughter when she calls telling him to get back there, shes already started not wanting him to spend time with our daughter, but wants him to spend every second with her. He told our daughter, im sure a lie, that he is sick of her wanted some serious relationship, hes sick of her wanting to cuddle, hold hands, and be all over him every second, and that she wont let him go anywhere without him the days he is there, he cant even go to the gym alone once a week she wants to be by his side, share the machines, an workout by his side. I know this is what sent him over the edge last time they lived together, but this time is different, I know it will bother him, but he will stay with her, as now, she pulled out the big guns, letting him go away every weekend, and one night during the week. He also told our daughter, another lie, im sure, that pretty soon she wont put up with it and he will have no place to live, yeah right, he'll just give into her, move in lock stock and barrel, and stay forever. I just know it, how exciting for him to know, when he retires in Nov, at such an early age, he doesnt have to look for another job, she will support him, and he will love the new condo, and all the stuff she will continue to buy him, condo hasnt happened yet, but im sure it will. Im sad, he would rather be with her than with his family, coming and going as he pleases, but being here for his daughter while she is ill. im just so sad, feel so rejected, why does he want this girl, even after she call the cops, he went to court and got in trouble at work. its all too strange........he must love her, and that means it was me, he just didnt love me..............please talk to me...........
jaycee
thanks marissa
Jaycee
alone.
I'm sorry you are feeling so
kg
Jaycee
Quit
HE
neverlookback
Jaycee
need
validation and possibly money
Jaycee
Jaycee ----Why hers?
shaynasmommy
Jaycee
Its not, Jaycee
he will never detach his fangs
Jaycee
i hate
thanks neverlookback
Jaycee
THEY
thanks sweetie
Jaycee
re-read your post here
he kept the mask on for years
Jaycee
Jaycee
Believe in yourself!
Terri
YES
terri its there, but i still doubt it wasnt me
Jaycee
Jaycee
Believe in yourself!
Terri
terri
Jaycee
Oh honey, he doesn't love the
skystar
Jaycee
Not Love
loveyourself
Jaycee
Deep down she must have doubts.