My narc is like a slot machine.

Being with a narc is like playing a slot machine. I think that if I just play a little longer, my pay off will eventually come! When I think about walking away from the slot machine, I have fears of another stepping up, playing and winning!!! I'm afraid that another woman will benefit from all the time, hard work and sacrifice I've put in. It keeps me paralyzed sometimes...unable to walk away from the slot machine (my narc)...even for a minute...don't wanna lose my spot!! This can't be normal?!!