My ex and I were together for a few years before I was pregnant with my fist. He lift me at 6 months saying I was selfish and over emotional. He wouldn't sleep with me. Hold me and even got mad at me for getting morning sickness in his BMW ( I swear he loves that car more than me)
Well, he didn't come back around till our daughter was one. He had only met her twice before that. Even though he is the one who sued me for custody and support. Still hasn't paid child support.
Now, I let him stay in my apartment till he could get a job and find an apartment.... After living there for one month, he had one interview.
I asked him to please get his shit together, we can think about us after he proves himself to be a man.... he ended up proposing. I didn't know what to say.... I said yes, thinking, well I love him, I love making love to him, he treats my daughter well, he does lots of kind things for me..... and so on.
But my mother and my gut are telling me to run. I mean, why is he so ready to be married after leaving me and wanting NOTHING to do with us for almost 8 months ( he claims he always wanted to be with us and knew he was hurting me but he was confused)
I'm supporting him after I worked graveyard shift to be able to afford a babysitter, I would go 3 days with out sleeping because in the daytime after work I watched my daughter. I'm 27 years old and I had shingles! When I'm with him I feel in love but when I'm away I remember the facts and hate him....
The worse part. I'm pregnant again. 8 weeks. I used protection. Even still I should have never even let him back in my home. I cant fully convince myself to believe he has npd.....
Should I get out? Should I give us a try? He's not abusive, he just a little "off". Should I get out, if so, how? I'm engaged, he's living in my home and now the father of TWO of my kids? What the hell have I gotten myself into. I'm seriously going to go insane.
Help me. I'm so tired of being up and down. I just want a calm life and to not always be questioning if I should be with the man I'm with.
Hi, Kpoole
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