I am now into 7 weeks of NC (excepting a lovely letter from his solicitor saying I have no right to claim the 12,500 grand he owes me), however, I am finding it so hard to just let go. He has blocked me on FB so that he could quickly move on - I hear from friends that he is already making in roads into the OW's life - making friends with her friends on FB - something he never did with mine in the 3 years we were together. They are planning to move in together etc etc - it's not even 2 months since he left me!
So this morning I have deleted ALL photos - everything, all of the holidays, our kids together, all of it. I have also deleted his number, blocked it on whats app, the lot.
I am so angry - 4 months ago he was telling me he would never be able to give me up totally, and now he has formed a new life, completely. The frustration comes from his utter arrogance, he has a new job, moved house, it's all new. I have moved back to my old house, my life is back to what it was before i met him - this is a GOOD thing. But I so want to retaliate - I know he won't hoover, it was so bad at the end that it's not even a remote possibility - I wish he would so I could tell him where to get off!! More to the point - I wish I didn't CARE!
I know all of the things I SHOULD be feeling - I can't wait to get there - but still I am so bruised, so hurt and so utterly gobsmacked by what he did. My God, these men are truly evil. This has been going on since January!
Nothing we had was real, that is so hard to accept but I have - now it's just the anger - I am not the sort of person who can deal with injustice very well, hence I saw through him in the end and all of the lies and BS - he told me he wants 100% - the "ideal love"!! I just need to know that he won't find it - that he will not change and that this poor woman is going to have to experience what I did, otherwise there really is no justice in the world.
Sorry to rant - am going for a run later to get it all out!!