My Way or The HighWay

I was asked once what I really thought of men and women I had been involved with...I SAID NOTHING AT ALL NOW...

I am INDIFFRENT TO THEM AND ANY PAIN OR DRAMA THEY GET...

Today, when I was out, Mr. Male Model, as I think of him, was talking and suddenly asked me, "what number do you live at?" "I will pop round for a cup of tea."

I SAID NO!!!!!!!, I then said, "you haven't disappointed me in your predictability, cos you are all so alike."

Off I went and thought, every man/women starting with MY PARENTS, but all under the GUISE of their I LOVE YOU'S has let me down. Although, my XH, said, "you expect too much of people." I say, "I expect what I give out."

If anyone expects, my loyalty and friendship, and for me to be in their corner always, (which they do), then why am I not allowed to expect the same from them in return?"

Yes, I know my strength, attracts needy weak people, however, why should I put them back on their feet again and again and when I do, They hit the road. Then they always, come back and say, "you were right, Used."but I done it again, can I cry on your shoulder again...NO YOU CAN'T!!!!

I now, have all these type of people OUT of my life.

I wasn't like this at 15 or in my 20's. Back then, I collected lost SHEEP.

When I saw the Narc, yesterday, him having followed me into 4 places, where we both live... I thought you made your bed, NOW, you can fxxking lay in it. Whereas when I was in my twenties, I would have felt like oh give him/her another chance and feel like I had to speak with him/her.. not anymore.

My point is, they are so shallow, they dont seem to see or GET....It is my strength, which attracted them to me in the first place,and that it that very strength then becomes the strength for me to DUMP them and STICK to it without a BACKWARD GLANCE

TODAY, I am extremely selective about who I let into my life, I will no longer allow this type to get close or near me. I no longer allow it a LOT of things, My bounderies are in place, My self esteem is firmly in place, and I am WAY TO GOOD FOR THEM.....

The world is full of parasites, leeches, and hanger on's...and no one is going to pull me down to the depths again...If I were to let that happen IT WOULD BE MY OWN FAULT......

I do not care if MY PARENTS, XHN and XN OR SOME OF MY SO CALLED WOMEN FRIENDS loved me....because if they did and that was LOVE, I don't want any part of it.

I am fine, living my own life, and I no longer care or choose to engage with those outside my immediate trusted circle.
I have been hurt so very much in my LIFE so many times,and still stood for it, The apologies, The I didnt mean it like that[YES THEY DID], The YOU ARE SO SENSITIVE CRAP... I am past letting in and caring for those "poor" lost little lambs, who saw my strength as theirs to use and abuse for their own selfish needs, with little regard for me.Do they MISS ME?, YEP it would appear so...given that not one of them has given up trying to GET BACK IN MY LIFE ...I was never their PRIORITY...during MY CHILDHOOD, MY MARRIAGE, MY R/S OR MY FRIENDSHIP'S, BUT SUDDENLY I AM......

I love this board and all the Mods. I wish for all of the members to see this for themselves. I can share my strength and hope with you, yet, I cannot do it for you. We all need to come to a place where we no longer keep trying to save others and begin to chose wisely who we let into our inner circles.

As I have grown older and wiser, I think to myself...
What a crock of shit it all was with these needy selfish using MEN AND WOMEN AND HOW GOOD LIFE IS NOW I GOT THEM ALL OUT OF IT....