advice please!

How do i move past the hell I left?

lived and loved (and still love?) a man who abused me mentally and physically for 8.5 years. He cheated on me (denied it, of course) and i looked past it all "because i love him". I finally got the strength to ask him to leave in October 2014. Over the past 2.5 years, i have been in one relationship (great guy - but suffers from horrible depression and I finally realized that I cannot "cure him" so i ended that relationship - go me!) but even in the "best moments" of that relationship, i continually thought of my narcissist.