The Lonely
The Lonely
I know all the right answers...stay busy, do things you love to do, join groups, etc. etc. blah blah blah
I do all of the above and more. I'm 51, and have been in a relationship of some sort since my teens. All I have are my boys, and they have lives of their own...
Most of the time, I'm improving and getting stronger from the recent devastation of losing my husband, whom I thought was my best friend forever......my provider, and the step father to my boys.........
but sometimes, try as I may, I can not overcome this emptiness and loneliness. I miss having a companion so badly..yet I know in my heart of hearts, I can never love or trust again. Perhaps that's why the hole in my heart feels so enormously huge sometimes......
Sharing a life with someone, the way God intended it to be for all of us...it's not possible for me, ever again.
Our neighborhood is having it's spring gathering by the marina, drinks , food , music, etc..........and I stay at home (while I have one), afraid to leave, not fitting in anywhere in this world, and wondering what I did to deserve this horrific evil to come upon me? I was so good to him...so patient, so trusting, so everything a wife is supposed to be.......I was a Madonna whom went years w/o intimacy....never knowing why. I'm angry, very angry. Because I was a good person, he set out to destroy me???? I had nothing else to give him! I didn't get used for money, not for sex, not for profit of any sort! I was used to create an image he wanted to portray, of a devoted family man....I guess? So if that were what was important to him, then why has he left and never looked back? Is he so sick he thinks people don't see how he's treated his "family"???YUK I have nothing, for he pursued me while married, and he convinced me not to fight for anything...that we had all we could ever need, that he would take care of me and the kids forever, blah blah blah........He's a predator, and he's moved on to his next married woman and broken up another marriage.......she's been told the same, that he will take care of her.....and she did the same as me! To have to conceive that there are evil, coveting psychopaths out there that get their jollies on destroying what they see other people have, that they can never have..........is a sort of death to me. In more ways than one..............
The person I used to be is dead.
they don't want to get it
Great article
GIJ
My heart goes out to
i could have written this myself.........
Getting "over it"
gullablegull
Hi gullablegull...
Am still hoping too, and the
gullablegull
Get angry...anger is a form of energy that helps us move forward
Wish I could help
And not too many people get it !!
Me too