HELP!!!!

Hey, I haven't posted for a few weeks been reading, reading, reading and I was in such a good place today - been making major progress and then.....

ExNH contacted (via work) that he was coming on Friday to get more of his stuff.

I know that I have to let him get his stuff, I'm o.k. with that but he's coming with my dog (those of you who know my story understand). I can't have him come here with my dog and I told him that he can't stay overnight that he has to find a place to stay and I know that will be difficult because of the dog. I'm not trying to be hateful and why do I care? This whole situation is because of his choices and his decisions and now his world is falling apart and he loves me and it wasn't me it was him and I don't want to see him but I don't want to give him free access to my house. I can't see the dog and have her see me and also deal with the trauma that it will do to my Chelsea (beagle). Why do I feel that I'm the bad guy again unless I make it easy for everyone? I haven't made the progress that I thought I had made.

And I know this sounds crazy, but I could do what I needed to do if it was just him - it's the dog and I've just had another moment - he's using my feelings for the dog (won't say my dog anymore she's not)

Spinning, Goldie, Janie, Hunter, Journey, Truthbeginstoday, HELP!!!!! Guess this is waht I get for starting to feel good about myself and my decisions. I know it is just one weekend and I have to get through it. He's going to try to make me feel guilty and tell me how much he loves me and that it was all his fault - I'm afraid....