Been in bed.....

for about three days,now.

I can't seen to get myself moving. I know I am just overwhelmed from eveything going on in my life. Money issues, job issues, childhood issues, narc issues etc......

I spent this morning crying. I am stuggling to get moving. I thought of calling the ex-narc, asking him for the money he owes, but I know that would be useless. CONTACT=PAIN. He had told me even if I took him to court, he wouldn't pay. Really, I've don't think about it till I get stressed.

If this experience is a wake up call, it woke me up and has me spinning. I am worn-out. I know it takes time, and I will continue to do the work, just tried from all of it. I am not trying to have a pity party, but I have carried the load of all this alone. I wish I was one of those people that can just pick up and go on, but I seem to get stuck in my emotions.

Just venting, thanks for reading.

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