Total breakdown,suffocation..anxiety atack

16 posts / 0 new

#1 Apr 8 - 11AM

shortway2

Total breakdown,suffocation..anxiety atack

Yesterday was by far the worst anxiety attack I have ever experienced during this 7 mths nightmare..
This one I literally couldn't breathe,I was crying and trying to catch my breathe..My mother was trying to help me stop it.I literally couldn't.She didn't go out,and was planning on staying home today..
I am completly broken down..I need to repair my soul again..Everything came like a tidal wave at me..I'm trying to get this under control...

#2 Apr 8 - 4PM

shortway2

Thank you..I am trying to

Thank you..I am trying to repair myself..whatever happens will happen..supposedly the guy i was talking to is going through some problems his family said..I think the ex_n situation came out full force.I didn't realize how much all the checking his Fb page,breaking Nc caught up with me and is affecting this new guy>I am putting him through hell in my head for maybe him going through a hard time and not being able to reloacte right this second... Right now I can't take my anger out on his first slip-up..I will see what happens when he says what he has been dealing with.. Cause lord know I am dealing with stuff as well..I don't want to raise all hell and fury with this one over a week of him not contacting me..I'm building my walls and keeping my boundaires up..

#3 Apr 8 - 11AM

shortway2

Yes it does.. I am in the

Yes it does.. I am in the process of cutting off my father as well.After years of bad treatment to me and my sister.I am finally saying enough is enough..I am one to always forgive and try again..But I guess I am flooded with all these disappointments...My father tried to emancipate us so he wouldnt have to pay child support..among 20 other things.. I am tryin to reach within and put up walls and boundaries now.I am thinking about changing my phone number so my ex-n and father can't contact me ever again. It's alot of stuff..

#4 Apr 8 - 12PM (Reply to #13)

Veronrose

Emancipation. My narc went

Emancipation. My narc went to court to do that with his son. I don't know if this is true or not, but he told me that was the thing to do since his son had turned 18. Shortway, may I ask, did your father try to do that before you were 18?

#5 Apr 8 - 12PM (Reply to #14)

shortway2

Yes it was before I was 18..I

Yes it was before I was 18..I was on high school.So I think I was around 16....It is in my eyes the lowest thing any person can ever do to anyone... I'm glad other people understand..Just alot of deep stuff lately..

#6 Apr 8 - 12PM (Reply to #6)

jen79

shortway

thats what I did 3 days ago. Please do it. My father and the n cannot reach me anymore. I felt like you, overwhelmed with it all, and I wasnt feeling well. But its worth it. Leave it all behind. The peace is priceless.

#7 Apr 8 - 12PM (Reply to #7)

shortway2

Jen..I'm so glad someone

Jen..I'm so glad someone understands..wow we are living the same life right now..It is hurtful isn't it..But yes i might go ahead and do it

#8 Apr 8 - 1PM (Reply to #8)

jen79

shortway

Yes it is hurtful. Very much so. But see it as a sign, that this now all pops up together, we learned a lesson hard, no one to turn back to, but to find peace and strength from within. And you know, its time to leave it all behind. At least you have like me a mother who seems to be a saint. So there is love in your life, this is what love is all about. Big Hugs!!!

#9 Apr 8 - 1PM (Reply to #9)

shortway2

Yes you are right!..I have

Yes you are right!..I have repeatedly forgiven..My father doesn;t call me anyway so changing my number might be fruitless.lol Yes my mother is saint..She gets so upset seeing me like this..She gets even more upset when my father does stuff to me. I need to put up serious boundaries now..it is time

#10 Apr 8 - 1PM (Reply to #10)

jen79

shortway

Oh mine didnt mind calling or caring for me for decades, until he had to pay now for my study fees, 100 euro a months. So thats why I got the rage, its time to leave toxic people behind, people who do not care and cannot see you as the being you are.

#11 Apr 8 - 1PM (Reply to #11)

shortway2

I"ve been there too!..Oh my

I"ve been there too!..Oh my god...My father would pretend he never got the tuition bill.He would say it never came when clearly it did.It was embarrassing..I remember looking at the college person and them looking at me like,he recieved it..

#12 Apr 8 - 1PM (Reply to #12)

jen79

shortway

And do you see the connection. That would have been our future, we almost would have repeated the cycle of abuse with another daddy replacement. A narc who doesnt care. Its all created for us to wake up, to wake up, to see how powerfull we are. And you are. Your love is powerfull, we just have thrown it into the wrong direction, to someone who cannot receive it. Its time to end this. Change your number, and make the decision, that you will love yourself and that you have the power, and that your soul is divine and you respect that. Love yourself, and spread love into the world to those who can receive it. And who can see you.

#13 Apr 8 - 11AM

shortway2

Thanks ideal.. It has been 24

Thanks ideal.. It has been 24 hours of crying..I managed to eat and sleep which is good because once that gets all messed up then I am screwed. I was going to take an anti-anxiety pill but sometimes that makes me worse.So I had some red wine.. Yes,my mother is a wreck,she will not be having a good overnight vacation as she is probably worried.She said you are so strong,I hate seeing you like this..She cries when she sees it.I just can't stop crying.. Yes,I am mad about the principle of the matter.I am big on principles..i guess the past 7 mths have just been alot..I walked in on the ex-NArc with another girl,now this..Just alot of stuff..

#14 Apr 8 - 11AM (Reply to #4)

Hunter

Yep, when it rains it pours!

Yep, when it rains it pours! Sometimes things really suck! You know the answers just find the strengh from within to keep plugging along! You can do it! Idealk

#15 Apr 8 - 11AM

ImStrong

Listen to Idealnyc..she knows

Listen to Idealnyc..she knows what shes talking about

"In the fiery pit lays a man with two faces.One is the face of a God and the other a face of the Devil.Beware He lurks your souls.Keep one hand on your heart and the other hand over your eyes. Let him walk pass you not into you.Ghost of love will possess

#16 Apr 8 - 11AM

Hunter

Shrortway

Ok, I know what that is like, you have to make it stop from Within, talk yourself down! I think you are more upset over the situation than this person, correct? You feel like he screwed you over ,you are upset because you trusted again and you were let down! Yes ,dear another asshole! You are a Better person than this and you know it! See how your mom loves you? You deserve a man who loves you like that, not one that hides and lies! You have a great trip planned enjoy it! Dont go near this idiot and live! Life should be for fun not tears! Tears are for funerals only ( real ones) :) I always like to toss in a chuckle! Hugs Idealk

Path Forward Buy Now Reviews
All About Her Buy Now Reviews
All About Him Buy Now Reviews