Mylifehaschanged's Story

Let me start off by saying,ithank God ive found People that understand what dealing,with a narcissist is like (CRAZY MAKING,MIND BOGGLING)So,heres my story.I have known my ex narc for 18yrs,but we didn't start dating till four yrs ago,an what a horrible four yrs i endured.I should had knew something wasn't right,because he showed me the first RED FLAG on the FIRST DATE!We made plans to meet at a local bar(I use to live in this town but sinced moved 150 miles away,so,i had to travel to meet him)i,arrived at 3pm and he told me he was on the way but didn;t arrive till 5:30!i,gave him his first dose of supply,when he noticed my discomfort,when he finally got there.He had the nerve to look at me straight faced an say;I HAVE ALWAYS LOVED YOU SINCE I FIRST MET YOU,18YRS AGO)!i,still ask myself to this day,why???DIDN'T I RUN THEN???anyways,after that night he treated me very,kind for the first two months...after,that it was a living hell.After four yrs of dsting this man.I CAN NOT LOOK BACK AN SMILE AT NO GOOD MEMORIES!My memories only consit of pain,anger and the feeling that im CRAZY!This man is the incarnate of the devil himself.I,was used only for sex and money while he srtung along five other women and a WIFE!WHY WAS I SO ATTACHED TO THIS MAN???someone who clearly showed me time after time that HE IS NOT RIGHT!Until he did the total DEVALUE N DISGUARD.he has turned lots of people in my hometown against me.he has lied constantly on me. when i do go to my hometown and go out some where HE SHOWS UP!Its like this creep has evil powers or watching me.My Son n Law has noticed this also.I,was in my home town a month ago hadnt had contact with him in over four months and he once again just magically appeared.do they have evil power?as long as im in my new home state.i,dont call or text him.when im in my home state and see him I END UP CALLING OR TXN HIM???(AM I REALLY CRAZY)???my whole life has changed.The people that im still friends with have seen the change in me.i, barley can trust others anymore.its like he live in my mind c0nstantly.he,has projected all his filt on me.I,Pray all the time for GOD to take back what the devil has stole.He is answering my prayer because he lead me straight to this site.THANK YOU LISA BECAUSE IF IT WASN'T FOR YOUR SITE N SOME OTHERS I WOULD HAD KNEW NOTHING ABOUT A NARCISSIST.YOUR site is the best though:)P.s....i have sooooo much to talk about as far as my experience this is only the tip of the iceberg.