Thank you for words, and I will follow your advice. I think my nightmare will be ending soon. I am terrified financially, and I am terrified of the lonely nights, but overall, I know in my soul this must end.
I believe I am codependent re: the sexual addiction. I became so ill I was afraid to go out of the house for fear he would look at porn. I would snoop on him at work, at home. I would freak out if he masturbated (sorry to be so graphic -- I've been exposed to so much, you wouldn't even believe it, and I used to be private about such things). I have so many issues to heal. I used to go to SLAA meetings as a love addict, and they were healing, but I stopped going because he would click on pictures of naked women on the computer while I was there. My feelings about such things became totally out of whack. Anyway, I have a long journey of healing ahead, but I am so grateful for this site and others.
Thank you for you words of help.
lisa
Thank you