you were right...there is another woman

It has been about three weeks since I posted, and I hope that you are doing well--even though many of the posts that I am trying to catch up on are so painful. On this end, I broke NC today after a month. I had a feeling in my gut that I needed to call my ex-husband. And hew answered (though lied about being in the office when I know that he is on vacation :-) He told me that he had moved on and that he has a new love. After 5 years of marriage, filing for divorce 6 months ago, and the divorce going through 3 months ago. I was such a fool, believing his stories of why he left (we just were not meant for each other, I did not love him enough...blah blah blah) when it seems that either the OW was there in the background or conveniently appeared a few weeks after he left, and after he professed that he loved me more than anyone else in the world. I am ashamed to say that I made excuses for him, that I thought he was different from "the others", that I called him a psychopath to "excuse" him treating me so hurtfully by leaving me as he did, in a public place, and not answering calls for 3 months. But I never expected that he would "move on" so quickly. This man who told me how important marriage was for him, how he waited one year after breaking up with his last girlfriend before meeting anyone else,....I believed all of this nonsense, when at the end of the day he is a liar, put me through psychological anguish for months by pretending to be depressed when he was really cunningly planning his exit, probably cheated on me, and definitely was "just like all the others"--basically someone incapable of loving me and not deserving of me. Today I feel so strange at the news, almost numb. But certainly very very stupid.