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The worst nightmare - but I read a good book last night

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#1 Jul 21 - 8AM
Happy1
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The worst nightmare - but I read a good book last night

I had the worst nightmare that the N was back in my life and pretending once again he did nothing wrong. We were on the boat with the boys again.
God I hate these dreams. I woke up in sweaty puddle .. .gross huh. I was kinda grossed out myself.
I hope the nightmares stop soon. I wasn't even thinking of him when i went to bed. I was reading 'sizzling sixteen' by Janet Evnovich and she cracks me up and makes me laugh her books are so good. It took me a month to pick this book up and I read the first chapter last night. It was a good distraction for a few minutes. If you guys love a good book, I highly recommend her books. The first of the series is "one for the money". Awesome books!

Jul 22 - 12AM
helldweller
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nightmares

I have to add, too, that the most surreal thing about the nightmares is waking up to the worse reality of it. For the past TWO YEARS EVERY SINGLE DAY I have opened my eyes to think, "Where do I stand with the N?" And my mind, which should be praying, thinking about my daughters and the day ahead, and how I feel, just pounds me with thoughts of "Are we ok? Did we fight? How did it end yesterday with the n?" Gross.
Jul 21 - 11PM
helldweller
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Happy1

Hey! Oh, girl, the dreams! Every damn night. Last night I dreamt that my n bought a new place and invited my girls and I to live there with him. When we arrived, there were two bedrooms, each with two beds. In one bedrooom: the narc and his babysitter had one bed; his brother and foster child had the other. My daughters and I had the other room, and it was closed off from the other bedroom by a locked gate, just like the one he put up to his back yard when I told him how much I liked coming over to water his plants!
Jul 22 - 12AM (Reply to #8)
Happy1
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God! I know what you mean

God! I know what you mean by waking up and our first thought wondering where we stand with the N. It sucks! The dreams are hard because they seem so vivid and real but wait a minute. This jerk put up a gate when you told him you liked watering his plants? What a nut job this guy is helldweller.
Jul 21 - 12PM
rainbow1
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I had a dream too

I had a dream last night that I took him up on his offer to take him back. He even moved back in. It was good for awhile. Then we had a party at our house and he invited one of the slutty girls that he fools around with when we break up. I took him in the kitchen and starting slapping him and hitting him! I guess this is my brians way of telling me that I will never be able to trust him again so dont take him back!

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"dont let yesterday take up too much of today"

Jul 21 - 10AM
Lisa E. Scott
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Happy1

"I hope the nightmares stop soon. I wasn't even thinking of him when i went to bed." That's the power of your subconscious. Your subconscious never stops working and operates at a rate of 4 x faster than you can speak.
Jul 21 - 3PM (Reply to #3)
Happy1
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Thanks! I hope the

Thanks! I hope the nightmares stop soon also. 8-) I will keep reading before bed and see if it helps down the road.
Jul 21 - 9PM (Reply to #4)
MsVulcan500
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Stephanie Plum

Happy, you can't go wrong if you're reading Stephanie Plum! I haven't gotten 16 yet, but I need to soon. I got my daughter hooked on Janet Evanovich too, and now she is buying the whole set.
Jul 21 - 10PM (Reply to #5)
Happy1
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MsVulcan500

She makes me laugh out loud while reading! They're great books! 8-) You will like 16!
Jul 21 - 8AM
betty2020
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Good morning Happy, Im so

Good morning Happy, Im so sorry to hear about your rough night hun. I know this took me some time to stop having obsessive dreams about my N. There horrible. They seem so real and makes you feel like your re living the trauma all over again. It will get better i can assure you. I still have dreams on occasion. Now the dreams are less realistic and he is not the center focal point of the dream. He lost the lead role if that makes sense. Im glad you enjoyed your book last night. I will have to check her out when i get to the book store. Hope you have a great day today and i will chat with you soon.... xoxo only one way to go...Forward (tm?)

only one way to go...Forward (tm?)