Why is your Narc better than Mine?

Gosh, I'm going to be a little sarcastic this morning. It's Saturday...haha! I posted this as a response to another link and wanted to know why you miss your narc? Why is your narc better than mine?
I'm 9 months out and sure I have my daily thoughts of him, but why do you want your narc? But I I don't know how long it takes to ever really stop thinking of them. My therapist told me he is my one addiction that I absolutely have to do everything in my power to run and stay away from him. This has been my battle and I am winning this war. Blocking him, changing my number, throwing his numbers away. This is how you make sure he doesn't surface.
Anyway, I listed all the great things that he gave me. I could go on and on and on, but this is what I came up with quickly. Let me know what you miss so much about yours? Oh, the sex doesn't count... sex is in no way intimate with them. Words don't count... I can talk a good talk, but it's ACTIONS that really count. So please share as I am sharing what I got out of my lovely Michael.
I now have these really cool anti depressants I've never been on before my narc that my doctor said I have no need for once my narc is out of my head.
I pay out of pocket for a great therapist I never had before my narc
I have spent hundreds of dollars on reading material both on healing and on what the he'll is wrong with my robot of a man
I lost a job beginning of last year because of him.
I was very short and curt with my son.
I couldn't sleep
I obsessed about thinking and replaying what he said over and over trying to make sense of it.
I would feel i could never ever speak up because he would break up with me again.
I have PTSD
I have zero trust
I hate men still! I am 9 months out and won't consider a date
He never showed me true affection. Only sex
I was expected to know what he was thinking and be 2 steps ahead of him. And he kept gettig worse and worse.
Ahh! I now now what the silent treatment means. It's always good to learn new things right?
I know what verbal abuse is now. Gosh, how he was so good at cutting me down. If I gained 5lbs he would leave me, if I didn't go change my clothes we weren't leaving...
I remember the good old days of sitting on the couch next to him and feeling completely alone.
He taught me how NOT to treat others.
He had me apologizing to everyone in site for basically breathing.
He was good at sex but it was my passion and love that made it so good.
He has taught me the difference between sex and love.
He has taught me that HE is a fungus that I don't want.
He never ever apologized to me but I heard him fake say to others.
He showed me how scary he really was with no emotion. scary doesn't even cut it.

What is so great about yours? Actions speak LOUDER than any bullshit words. Remember that. Observe your surroundings. You need to start waking up from your dream. You can do it. Be strong. You have the strength