This is why I have gravitated towards Narcs

So, my own sister, who helped raise me (long story, and don't want to get into the details) ...I believe has resented raising me all these years. I'm in my 40's now...and today, I texted her and then left her a vm msg...wishing her a happy easter. And no reply back. lol I laugh because this has been going on for YEARS, you see.

I have jumped through so many emotional hoops for her, I guess because I always felt somehow guilty that she didn't have much of a younger life, having to help raise me. But, now, in my 40's...I'm truly over it.

I REALIZE I HAVE SOUGHT VALIDATION THROUGH MEN BECAUSE OF HOW SHE (AND HER THEN HUSBAND, THEY'RE DIVORCED NOW) TREATED ME GROWING UP. Emotional and verbal abuse was the norm in my household growing up, and directed even at their own kids, so I never really took it personally.

I'm totally over her silent treatment nonsense. I lost my job around Christmas, and she seemed sympathetic. Then, for the past few months...NOTHING. Haven't a heard from her. I could have died for all she knows.

It's so very sad when you grow up with narcissists. It makes it all the more easier to gravitate towards them, in a love-relationship.

But, no more. I have known for a long time where this has come from, and today, I declare to you...that's enough. I wish her well. I called her, but if she wants to STILL treat me like I owe her something in this life...I can't do it anymore. I just want to live and be happy.

Anyways...thanks for listening to my easter day ramblings! :) Happy easter everyone!