Why do we tolerate abuse?
Why do we tolerate abuse?
In learning about narcissism over these past several months, from a run in with one last year...and then again, recently...I have come to realize my role in it all.
I think for me, the ability to finally go NC, with EASE...has come from the desire to work on myself, and figure out why I stuck by an abuser for far too long. (even though both relationships were relatively shortlived)
It's important to understand narcissism from the standpoint of realizing we haven't done anything wrong. The lies and brainwashing that goes on in these relationships, causes us to feel like if only we could have been more this way or that way. Or if only we could have done something better...loved him more...treated him better. He/She would surely treat me better then right? Wrong.
What I have come to accept is that truly breaking free of these people and the addictive cycle in brings...is to work on myself. To find joy in living life without a man. To find peace in my own blessings. Then, and only then, will I be able to detect abuse better, and when it starts...back away quickly. As opposed to tolerating it. And frankly, abuse starts with a honeymoon phase. When someone sweeps you off your feet, and tells you he/she loves you after a few weeks? RED FLAG. This person is wanting to rush things along so they can lock you in. That is not love. It's a precursor to setting the stage for being controlled.
But all this aside. I realized I could analyze the man all day long. I could sit here and label him all kinds of things. Once we realize we are dealing with a narc...and we are being abused...we have to leave. No one deserves abuse, and we mustn't mistake it for love.
So, that's all I wanted to offer today. That you will think about your role in the narc dynamic, in your own situation. Why do you feel this is the best you can do? Why do you feel helpless to leave? Why do you accept abuse? Once you get to those answers and try to resolve them? You will then leave. And not look back.
It's rather freeing, I gotta tell ya. I have no desire to hear from that guy...or call him. Not to say I don't think about him, I do. And I catch myself analyzing in my own mind...what happened. But, he no longer controls me. Only I could stop the abuse.
ONLY YOU CAN STOP THE ABUSE. Because trust me. They won't.
kevsmart
The same way a drug addict
kizzy
Because he was the teacher
susan
Been away from the board...
Deidre99
onwithmylife
Diedre
I did not realize I was being abused...
Abuse
it's the slow boil
staying strong
Deidre
Monica
Good Question
I think that it stems from
Tolerate abuse!
Fantastic post D! You've come
Great post
right on, D!!
spinning
You go girl!