When you miss them...?
When you miss them...?
I have lists of all the horrible things that happened if I ever need a kick in the rear reminder but sometimes, lately, it isn't enough.
I'm in mourning. I miss the good parts, I miss the fantasy of who I thought he was, the one he created and I believed... I miss him sometimes and it's awful to admit in real life.
People don't get it, they think I ought to be so ecstatic to have him out of my life and out there dating and making friends and I don't know, being a shiny happy person now.
And sure, that's in my future. But I'm in a different place right now. Where I don't want to let go of the lies - I don't want to accept that it was pretty much all lies..
I think.. I don't know.
I'm reminded of him constantly; everywhere I go. Everytime I see the stuff around the house he has given our child on visits. Pretty much everywhere in the city, I'm faced with memories, both good and awful -- but he's on my mind and in my mind and I can't get him out. He doesn't deserve to be in there so much, but there he is.
How do you get them out of your mind???
Not easy right now
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Hey Spective
Do the Work
I think about all the times
Most
Yes there is the stabbing pain
Hi Spective...
spective, dearheart, it's
spinning
Thanks
Spiral staircase
Two Thoughts about obsessing...
I think what helps me is
Ok, so how do you KNOW? I
At first...
Accepting that they exist and were ones we loved WAS HARD!
Sometimes our mind already