i got diebtis, stomach pains, had to go to hospital where they stuck a camera down my throat, migraines, always had colds or chest pains, back ache, asthma[dr said it was stress related, always depressed, self harmed, the shakes so i had to hold a cup with both hands, cold sores, couldnt concentrate, sometimes slept for 12 hours. waking up with panic attacks. the list is endless. why are you always ill he said, why didnt i relize it was the effect he was having on me. the self harm was unbelievable what i did to my self. NOTICE i said did? and not do now!. b/c i am out of it thank god. i am flued up today but it is nature this time, not that lowlifes influence.
did they find something in your stomach? I am thinking about going to doctor for letting my stomach check. I also had/have several very diffuse pains in my body...I read it's normal when you are depressed, that you think you don't have to live long again and get cancer or something like that. But I am starting to be really concerned, I can't imagine that a body is dealing with this pain, tension, anxiety and panic attacks for so long and be not get seriously affected by it.
Ah yes and migraine I got too.
I have to add, that I know this feeling of panik when you don't hear from them, and the only cure for that is taking control back and cut all your losses and changing your number and emails. This anxiety won't leave you suddenly, as strange as it may seems cause he cannot contact you anymore after that anyway, but it gets better step by step everyday.
they said the stomach was stress, when i was at the hospital, i said without thinking to the dr, i used to get this when i was married, it stopped when i divorced him,dr said how long have you had it this time, and i started crying,relizing it was since i met the n. as for the migraines i had them with exh, they stopped after divorce, came back when i met n. if i am with someone and out of the blue one comes on, i am out of there these are my warning signs.i think you misunderstood jen my panic attacks are when i think i am going to hear from them, they dont have my numbers. myexh asks my kids how i am, i think oh get lost, the n lives near me and puts himself on show, since the break up. i found out he tried to join a club i go to, they said no.[ the n i mean.] but it sent me wobbly for a couple of days, i thought just leave me alone, and get out of my life.as for thinking you are seriously ill ,yes i thought all these things, i believe our minds are in such a dark place, that well i did, kept thinking i was going to die, every ailment i got i thought was something else, the asthma i got when n was stalking me 3 years ago.
Oddly enough I had back pain first, I even went to the dr thinking I had a kidney infection..nope. Then headaches, severe stomach issues and my baby weight is gone. I was 181 on June 2nd, I am now 135. Whuch is what I weighed prepregnancy. I also added a picture yesterday, screw em', I am who I am!
Omg...i can't believe everything you've all said...i never had a panic attack before last year,my arms would start to tingle,then numb,lightheaded,cant ge enough air,i seriously thought I was having a heart attack the frst time..ive had so many I cant even count them..bladder infections(prob due to dehydration,since I wasnt eating I wasnt drinking enough fluid either),memory loss,racing thoughts,......luckily the panic attacks have slowly but surely been getting fewer and farther in between,havent had a bladder inf in a really long time,dizziness gone,i still get depressed from time to time,but not nearly as severe as it was......i remember crying so hard to my mom after finding his cell phone bill w my grlfriends numbers all over it and the craigslist hookers. I was sobbing so hard,the pain was so deep,i was telling my mom I just wanted to die,i guess disappear is a better word,i wanted the pain to end,he had taken everything away from me,or so I thought...my friend chris,reminded me that that would just mean he had won,i dug deep and have found a girl inside of me that had been lost and if I can make it through that pain,i can literally make it through anything..
to when I was that 26 year old girl that walked in his house and found another girl whom we both worked with at his house. We got in a physical altercation in front of her. I remember crying and crying to my mom I was hysterical. That pain so deep. I had never felt pain that deep in my entire life. It was so traumatic that I did not contact him at all. Two months went by. I got a promotion and the pain was subsiding. It was published in our firms newsletter (the promotion that is). That night when I got home there was a message on my answering machine. "Just want to tell you congratulations on your promotion" as if nothing ever happened. It was a ploy to see if I would call him and I did. He told me how sorry he was and that we needed to spend some time together. We never spent much time together after that. I think he only wanted to see if he still had my heart or if he had gone too far and ruined things permanently. He wanted to keep me as back up supply.
My mom worried about me so much back then. I could see my pain on her face. I think she felt my pain. I can remember her shaking me saying "What! What does he have on you!" and her hugging me so tight. She wanted to take that pain away from me so badly but she knew she couldnt
You are so strong. The thing you said about crying on phone to your mum rang true. ... have done the same and felt bad because she has not been well and she worries about me. But liked the bit about finding yourself. This board is awesome and has stopped me texting at last minute. Stay strong
in fact I had exactly what you had and I still have : terrible stomach aches, back aches, problems with sleeping(firstly I couldn't sleep at all and then I was sleeping all the time as much as I could), I was eating too much and gaining on weight or not eating at all.My skin...allergies, spots,I remember New Years Eve when I looked so terrible I was ashamed to show up to my friends.Problems with concentration, working, focusing on something for more then 5 minutes, crying all the time(in a car, at home, in a shop), panic attaks and some more.He made me weak and ugly. I can see it on the pictures. I'm skinny, I look unhealthy,strange.It's true that now it's better then before but still I'm not the girls who I knew.terrible
seems we are twins. I guess it takes a while to get back to a stable body-mind-soul constitution.
It is funny me too, first I could not sleep a bit, then I had to sleep all day, when I had the time for it I just let it happen, though everyone says take action and make sport, but when you are in that stage, you have to sleep so your brain and body gets a break.
It is good to know I am not alone in this.
I've noticed that we have so many things in common. Firstly I was teriffied by what was going on with me, healthy, strong, happy me.I also tried to listen to others who were telling me: get over, move on, be active, do some sport but I just couldn't and that was the time when I understand there is one the most important person I should listen to: me.My body knew the best what I needed. I think that this oversleepping is a natural form of protection.
Our body is suffering,tired, exhausted so it needs to sleep.
I think somewhere very deep inside we know exactly what is the best for us and I think one day we'll be back, better, stronger, wiser.
The most difficult part is that it's so hard to manage and it takes so much time.
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the similarities are so comforting,im not alone:)
Oh gosh this takes me back
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it's true jen