what NC has revealed
what NC has revealed
hi
After 10 years with psychopath, I declared No Contact with the monster, so it has been 13 wks now.
I am so scared cause the only clarity that has been revealed to me is
- that he is more evil & non human(difficult to believe, but so true, esp. now that I am not in denial)
- that I am not Me anymore!(scary!)
I honestly feel non human myself.
I feel empty, I feel like I am nothing, my intelligence has evaporated, MY personality- its like seriously I lost it!
Where did I go?
Will I ever come back?
Am I now nothing but a crazy loser?
I have never been unemployed, but just prior to xmas I was let go by company (restructuring)
I havent even applied for unemployment benefits or for any jobs......I feel totally worthless.
I told family Dr. that I needed a referral to the Tramatic Stress Service. He referred me and 1st appt. to see if I qualify for service is next wk.
I am so out of it that I cant even explain what I have been through. I havent the words to describe. I am afraid I'm not going to get the help I need at this upcoming appt.cause it is so hard to describe verbally, plus I feel no one is going to believe me.
I just want to be Me!!
This is so unbelievable!
By now I should be feeling on top of the world, but now I have to find the strenght to even be a part of it!
This doesnt make sense.
He did say that I am ruined forever!
Sorry but is this true? It feels like it but is it true?
Thank you
BeLinda
meds
You are not ruined forever!
Maybe you should ask about med's?
meds
self-medicating
10 years is a long time
narcmagnet
Haha
into NC the same amount of time
into NC the same amount of time
belinda
NO!
Not Ruined
Belinda it is going to take work, lots of affirmations
Belinda
Ruined and totally unworthy!
Their little child inside,is,
Good one, Rache!
Wallaby
Ya -I'm having fun with it!
Your not ruined!!
stay strong