We all want to be Daddy's favorite girl: another take on the OW and jealousy
We all want to be Daddy's favorite girl: another take on the OW and jealousy
So I was getting ready for bed last night much too late than I should have due to some obsessing over my shame from the narc, and I thought about phone calls he would get on his cell while I was with him. He would get texts and calls all the time from several different women - one of them I knew he was still talking to but not seeing that much and was getting ready to D&D her, one was an ex GF that he still supported financially to some extent, one was another girl "friend" that he had an unclear tie to, and of course there were my texts and calls to him. I realized that he had all of us dangling on a different thread of the same web that he had woven - this intricate web of women who all seemed like his daughters to me last night. All fighting for his attention, and he, the benevolent father, takes time to give us all attention but as he decides and when he decides. I had slept with him one night and in the morning we were in the car when he got a call from one of his harem of daughters as I see them, and he just took the call right in front of me as if I should have absolutely no problem with her calling and him talking to her! He was saying to her, "no, I wasn't with so and so lastnight". But very, very calmly. It was so insane I can hardly believe I stayed in the car. I never felt like such a piece of dirt as I did in that minute. Well that's not true - I felt like a piece of shit around him all the time.
So I think a lot of us are sort of in a sibling rivalry with these narcs when we speak of other women. Just like kids who want their neglectful father's attention, we become jealous when our sister gets it. We and the OW's and the narc are all one big dysfunctional family I see now. I want health now. I don't have a father and he's never coming back and my N aint my Dad. And the OW aint my sister.
Sibling rivalry
Oh Arwen, you`re so right
Daddy's Favorite Girl
Ord courage...glad this spoke