wasabouthim's story

I keep it short, as many of you I had the same, started off as ALICE IN WONDERLAND, then a year in it all went wrong, dragged out of restaurants, kids being shouted at (mine) asking me to give me up bar work (yes tooooo many men at the bar)sort of kidnapped out of a foreign country, got a big scar on my body but hey ho he was the love of my life. I finally saw the light when he abused me in front of my best friend ( got dragged out of a restaurant and nearly strangled when we got home ) but he kept calling and texting non stop telling how much he loved me, As a fool I believed him, and yes we went back again. Same happen over and over again but its weird all of the sudden I really saw what he was like when we took all the kids on holiday, he is and was so jealous of the relationship I have with my kids and his kids he just flipped, we got finally back to the uk I tho enough. this is now a year later including a injunction but for some reason I can't move on. I have met some really nice men I went on dates with but I can commit at all. I have a nice meal (always pay for it as I dont want to be depended or to feel I owe them anything) some drinks but why ????? can someone tell me why I cant move on ! I really want to pls help